Thoughts on Thirty
Since I’m officially in my third month of my being thirty, I thought I’d take some time tonight to reflect on how it’s going thus far.
Thirty has brought a sense of confidence that I had no idea I could posses. Maybe it’s because I have accomplished things over the past ten months that I had no idea I could accomplish, or maybe because it’s given me a reason to pause and think about all I’m thankful for. Whatever the reason, I’m certain I’ve begun a good chapter.
I turned thirty in Mexico with my amazing husband. I started a new job six days later. I sadly haven’t had time to blog much. Or achieve many list item check offs. But I feel like I’ve taken the lessons and discipline I learned through all our blog challenges and have let them bleed over into my “new” life. I feel older! Not like my back is giving out or my knees hurt (although both of those things sometimes feel true when I go to my boot camp class!) but like my SOUL is older. Like I’ve grown emotionally and spiritually and intellectually and like I’m finally able to look life in the face and say, “I get you a little more now…and I’m going to roll with whatever you throw my way.”
I ate yogurt tonight with a friend I hadn’t seen in a while and we talked and laughed and teared up at one point. We both said at that we couldn’t believe how much had happened over the years since we’d met (acquaintances since high-school…friends for six years.) and as I continue to think about it now as I’m home and typing this blog….So. Much. Has. Happened. Boyfriends have come and gone, jobs have changed, houses have been purchased, etc. etc. And it seems like just yesterday we were both discussing whether or not we were “Nashville” enough to purchase skinny jeans and tuck them into our tall boots. [they just didn’t do that in Mississippi back then…and we were both pretty fresh off the Mississippi boat].
And that’s just one friendship. I’m so thankful for the girls I hold dear, and I feel like the Lord has blessed me with so many of them. That’s another thing I feel like thirty has brought with it: a deepening of friendships in several directions….thankfulness for the ones I’ve had for years (exhibit A: Mary-Hall), the blessing of new ones (often from unexpected places), and the renewal and growth of several others. I constantly stand amazed at the women the Lord chooses to bring into my life; how extraordinary they are in their own right, and how rich life can be when we encourage and walk with one another.
I’ve also lived enough to know that I won’t always be in this season. Heartache will happen. All my achievements will pale in the face of disappointments that I won’t seem to be able to overcome. But I know that the Lord will remind me of how He brought peace, strength and happiness over the past few months and how He will bring that again.
So in closing, you’ve been good to me thus far, thirty, and I’m thankful. I pray that I will continue to walk in the confidence and peace that I feel at this moment. And when I fail, or when all does not go my way as I know is bound to happen, may I have the grace to press on, the covering of my Heavenly Father, and the continued love and friendship of those with whom I have community.
Further up & further in,
P.S. In other news, I’m down another pound for a total weight loss of 9 pounds since January 1st! Only one more pound to go until I get to check “loose 10 pounds” off my list. Keith and I are still doing bootcamp classes together which not only gets our bodies in shape, but has been such a fun experience for us as a married couple to take the class together…encourage each other….watch each other make progress and succeed.
P.S.S. A shout out on the blog to anyone who can give me the title and author of the book where the quote “further up & further in” is from. And no Googling…I’m putting you all on the honor system here.